You never know how strong you are until being strong is your only choice. -Bob Marley
This past year has been one of hardest years I have had to experience in my adult life thus far. I had reached lows I never knew were possible for me to reach. Life at times seemed almost unbearable and there were moments I was seconds away from taking my own life. After I pulled myself out of that hell hole my mind dug me into and I really thought about the big picture I decided something. I decided that there was more to life than THIS. THIS being the hand that I was dealt, the difficult situations I had gotten myself in, traumatic experiences I needed to learn to heal from, etc. There was more to my life than what is now. I'm still not quite sure what it is exactly, but I can feel it within every fiber of my being. I am made for much more than existing. I am destined to leave a legacy. My name will mean something very important to a person or persons.
I am starting a journey towards self discovery. Almost 30 years old and I have decided it is time to figure out what I want to be when I grow up. In doing so, I am going to push myself in ways I have not pushed myself before. Forcing myself to go beyond all my comfort zones. My first step is starting this blog. I had originally planned on being a social media guru. Creating videos and inspirational posts. The more I started to think about that, the more I realized it wasn't an honest version of me. I was going to be someone people wanted to watch and wanted to interact with. Now, don't get me wrong... I still may make video and have a few inspirational posts every now and again. However, I believe through writing I can be my true, honest, and raw self. Pour my whole heart into whatever is on my mind at the time. And let me tell you... I always have a LOT on my mind. There will be no theme, no rhyme or reason. It could be anything from my struggles with depression and anxiety or my latest beauty tips and tricks, or I could just be sharing a hilarious story about my pets.
Here it is though. Honest and probably poorly written; my blog. I have dedicated myself to a full year of blogging. Who knows if anyone will read or follow. I rather try and fail than live a life of whatif.